The newest member of the Thyroid Club

Hi, my name is lee lee. And I have a Hypothyroid.

Yes, that's right. I spoke to my doctor yesterday and, after 4 tests with different levels, she finally feels comfortable diagnosing me as having an underactive thyroid. Apparently, my mom and grandma both had or have thyroid things as well. But I didn't really know that until recently, so I can let my doctor know at my next check-in/blood test. She called in a prescription I can't remember the name of and that is that. I had lots of questions for her, but when she called me last night I was in Target trying to find floaty things for babies to wear in the pool (i.e. our jacuzzi tub), so my mind wasn't really in the right place. But the doctor seems very happy that, at the least, I'm [probably] not clinically depressed again. I guess I am happy about that, too. Though I do have an Adjustment Disorder. So There.

In fact, everyone seems pretty relieved that we can blame all of this anxiety and fatigue on the thyroid and get back to business. And I guess i am included in that group of people, except I don't want to have too much faith in the medication because I've done a lot of reading where people say it takes months to regulate meds for thyroid conditions since everyone's thyroid is so very different. I guess we will find out. It would be nice if I could stay up past 8:30 or so, especially with the Red Sox on the damn West Coast! Also, while I have no hope of losing any weight, I would definitely like to stop gaining. Mainly because I cannot afford any more new clothes right now. Maybe I will find some fat girl business casual clothes on the side of the road... *fingers crossed*

And, as I told McKnight last night, I've never really been one of those "energetic" people--so we will definitely not get our hopes up about that!

will work for coffee, if you bring it to me

i've almost made it through my 2nd day of no afternoon coffee. i haven't *made* it through today just yet, but i'm thinking that i will. combine this with my frequent stair-stepping and mostly vegetarian eating and i'm [secretly] thinking that i might lose just a little teensy eensy bitsy bit of weight (like a pound, even???) without doing any exercise or formalizing a weight loss plan or even saying out loud, except that i'm about to blog it, that i would really like to lose some weight. damn, now i'll feel guilty when i get my afternoon coffee tomorrow! YOU GUYS SUCK.

some irritability explained...

after a month of successful pill popping (no, not k-pin, you twits), i have just found out that such a habit does, indeed, regulate one's period. that's right, kiddos. aunt flo is visiting. (remember when you were in high school and you'd say this and thought it was so "cool" but also ladylike? ah, innocence...)

anyway, i just thought i'd let you know. that it works. it is working...presumably.

Day 2, NTTSW

is it okay if i take the elevator down and the stairs back up? because i can't seem to remember to take the stairs until i'm already on the elevator. down is the easy part, anyway...right???

Day 1 of Nat'l Taking the Stairs week

in preparation for our big move this weekend, i thought it would be a good idea to take the stairs as much as possible from now until then. this morning, i couldn't figure out how to get upstairs from the garage without taking the elevator, but i will try that again tomorrow. there must be a way! i did, however, take the stairs up & down when i went to get breakfast. luckily, this is not a "take the stairs" week in order to lose weight--so i was able to get my fat-filled bagel & cream cheese that i love. on the way back up, i almost didn't make it...but i just kept telling myself it will get better with time. [almost] everything gets better with time...

Happy National Healthcare Decisions Day

National Healthcare Decisions Day is a nationwide activity to increase public awareness of advance directives such as health care proxies, with two key goals:

• encourage individuals to express their wishes regarding who will make health care decisions for them if and when they cannot, and
• stimulate discussion with providers regarding these wishes.

(from my job's intranet site)

After becoming a mom, I followed my sister's lead and decided to do both a living will/health care proxy and a last will & testament. I pay for legal assistance through my job and was able to download a DIY legal documents application from ARAG. Basically, I just entered my information in their templates and Woila! I had a will. Of course, I haven't had anyone witness or sign it yet...so it's "technically" not valid.

More importantly, I discussed what was in the will with my immediate family and partner. I strongly believe that decisions made regarding the future of your child should not be kept a secret! My parents took it well that Mark would be the legal guardian in the event of my demise, but I think we still need to make his relationship with Henri legal in some way.

You always think you have "time" but, really, you never know. I'm pretty cynical about death (especially suicide--my favorite type of death) but--all joking aside--you can't expect anyone--even those closest to you--to be able to read your mind. If you have an opinion, which, I'm sure you do, then let someone know, write it down and have a witness sign it. That way, you can rest peacefully for the rest of your death, knowing everything is still being controlled by you.